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VOCATION ?!@ ASAP !
S. Mai F. Soliven, RVM
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ttraction. It all started with that.
I was fascinated by what the Sisters are doing ---
they pray at regular hours of the day, they always
get in contact with people with much ease and lots
of cheers, saying many good things about life, about
God. They work as if there’s no day coming up
next. I thought that while some people have so much
money, the Sisters have so much time for others. They’re
dynamic, joyful, friendly. They radiate such a holy
charm. Well, the veil and the garb they’re wearing,
they have special attraction, too! I felt good imagining
myself wearing the same….while belonging to
their community and doing the same ministry…I
surely had a good tight sleep with that thought. Hey,
this is something…serious (I said.) |
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earching…I caught my heart searching for
something I couldn’t fully explain. It was there
conceived in my mind and nurtured in my heart but no
exact word could articulate it! What was happening
to me? I felt empty for days…months…yet
loaded emotionally… most of the times crying
(without justified cause)…until there was light…until
there was… |
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cceptance… AMEN, yes, LORD! Is it me?
Why me? There was silence and I heard Him say, Well,
why not you? That led me to self-ASSESSMENT.
What do I have to offer my Lord? Talents, well, I
have some. Head… health…heart… humor…humility… uhmnn… these
things really put me into deep self-AWARENESS. Until
I concluded, God could be right, why not me? |
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rayer. “Lord, here I am. I believe you’ll
take me for who I am and for what I am. I accept you
in my life. I trust in you. You bring strength to my
heart. Thank you, Lord, my GOD!” Indeed,
everything gets settled in prayer. My doubts and fears,
even my feelings of restlessness and insecurity were
turned into gentle comfort, deep peace and most of
all, I got the thing I needed most, inner courage and
steadfast faith. In prayer, I can see clearly how much
there is to be grateful for. For a fact, my VOCATION
is a graced gift. |
“ASAP, come to me, my child.
I am waiting for you.”
“Take
me, Lord, as your humble servant, ASAP!”
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